satans mission to bring me down

I'm back after not posting for months. I have received so many emails regarding my blog "Survivor" and I want to thank everyone for their sweet words. I guess what brought me back today is that panic attacks I have been encountering. It feels like a horrible nightmare that I am not able to wake up from. So much has happend these past few months, good and sad. I Lost the only father figure I had, my grandpa. I miss him so much and things have become more difficult in my life.On the contrary the man I fell in love with, asked me to marry him! :) yay! I am extremely excited! but as much as the Lord enjoys seeing us happy, satan just wants to see us miserable. The attacks I have allow me to go back to the dark place I was a few years ago, making my mind believe I am reliving a past memory.It's so scary that I do not feel like myself. I wanted to use this blog to allow my followers to email me YOUR advice. whether you yourself have experienced this or know someone who has. The affect it has had in my head causes me to have horrible migraines in which my doctor proscribed " Propanolol" but I do not like taking this medication. The only thing I have found that has helped me is, improving my relationship with God. Staying in His word allows the fear and pain to disappear. I'm just feeling so off today. Give me your thoughts in my inbox. -Julie